BIG news!

There's a sweet little baby growing in my belly!!!

Talk about shocked! WHEW!

Back in July, I was 3 weeks late. We spent about $100 on tests and never got a positive. My doctor finally got me in to do a beta test. The midwife called me back the next morning to say that it was negative and that she was sending over a prescription for Provera. We were absolutely devastated. We were diagnosed with "unexplained infertility" as well. Mrs. Cynthia (my midwife) told me that if I wasn't pregnant by the end of the summer, to make an appoinment to see Dr. T again. Summer came and went and in came October. I was feeling very discouraged. We had even contacted an adoption agency to hopefully begin that process sometime soon. I made an appointment for October 29 to undergo all sorts of testing. Something in me knew that I needed to cancel it, so I did. I wanted to give myself one more month. By the grace of God, we conceived the good ole fashioned way in November! :) :) :) :) :) :)

I was supposed to start my period on December 2nd. When it was a no show, I had the mindset that it was going to be the same thing that happened to me in July. I was too scared to test. I had a regular lady business exam appointment for Dec 13 and I knew that they'd do a routine pregnancy test on me anyway so we discussed just waiting until then. Quez and I knew that getting our hopes up was dangerous. 3:30 am on December 6th, while Quez was knocked out, I couldn't take it anymore. I threw on my clothes and headed to Walmart. He had no idea I was even gone, lol. I came back and followed the directions for the test. As soon as my pee hit the test strip and before I could even sit the test down flat, it was SUPER positive. I immediately began shaking and my heart was racing. I ran into our bedroom and flipped on the lights. Quez was not happy about that. lol. Then he realized what I was saying. He CRIED in the kitchen later that evening after we told our family and friends. It finally hit him. Sweet tears. Made my heart melt.

Our family and friends' reactions were HILARIOUS!

I never thought I'd be able to conceive naturally. I just knew that we were going to have to fight like hell to have a baby of our own. God said differently. Thank you, Lord, for this wonderful blessing and for breathing life into my womb.

Making memories :)

Every memory we've made in the present, the ones we're making now, and the memories we'll make in the future will only strengthen this relationship. This love grows stronger every single day. Here's the the memories: past, present, and future! :)

 

 

giving credit.

My husband. My best friend. The other half that makes me whole.

The sole bread winner. The non-complainer. The one who does almost everything with a quirky and toothy grin. Whatever annoying mishap happens on the ships, stays on the ships. He never brings work related stress into our home. He prays with me. He prays for me. This man would move the moon and the stars just to make me happy. He doesn't have to. Just knowing that I get to spend the rest of my life as his wife is enough. He's more than willing to crack open his bible in a church pew with me on Sunday mornings (or any morning for that matter). The man who always kisses me gently on the cheek and says "I love you" before he heads to base every morning.

The other half of my heart. My future babies' father. The man who works so hard every single day no matter what the weather is like and still helps me with dinner dishes. The one who will sleep on the couch or loveseat in the living room when I can't sleep just because he hates not sleeping in the same room/bed with me. The head of our household and the spiritual leader of our future family. My soulmate and my forever.

He is my living and breathing dream come true. <3

everyday miracles

I woke up before the sun did this morning. Slipped on some more appropriate clothes, made a pot of coffee, and sat out on my balcony breathing in the cool & crisp fall morning air. I like to do that sometimes; look around and soak in all of God's wonder when most of the world is still tucked away in bed. That's when I feel closest to Him.

I've been doing a lot of soul-searching lately. Trying to find that thread that'll hold me together, the hope that'll see me through. Daily I am learning more and more that the more I lean on God, the better I'll feel. Everything happens in His perfect time and the way He wants anyway. I might as well, suck it up, shut it up, and let Him take the wheel. I've always "known" this but putting what you know into action can turn into quite the battle. I'm human, I make mistakes, and I was not blessed with the patience of Job.

Every day God gives me to work on my faults, share my talents, and perfect my attributes is a miracle. I was reminded of this today. So as I let each sip of this coffee warm my chilly body from the inside out, I'm going to thank Him for this beautiful day and wait for the miracle we've been praying for over the past year.

Welcome to our home! APARTMENT TOUR!



The crazy thing is, we're the only apartment here in this huge complex (that I know of) that has a wreath and a welcome mat. I think it makes it more "homey".



The little foyer

The "mountain" you have to climb to get to the actual living quarters. A ton of groceries and these stairs make me grouchy. Soooo grouchy.

View as you finish conquering the stairs. The dining area and the living room.

Our cute dining area. I LOVE my kitchen table and chairs. The sides of it even let out to make a big round table!

Living room (I'm watching Grey's Anatomy)



View from couch



View of my comfy couch. I got that Pottery Barn throw blanket from GOODWILL!!! SCORE!

My kitchen

Appliances

View from the fridge. Jax's "bathroom". No worries, his box gets cleaned out EVERY time he poops or tinkles.

Hallway leading to bedrooms/bathroom. I need to invest in a rug runner.

Our little laundry closet. I buy detergent and fabric softener in bulk, as you can see.

Please excuse the man cave's unorganized look. I never go in there so Quez cleans it. He's slacking. haha!

Our bedroom and my awesome king size bed. Love that thing. Best investment we've made thus far for sure!

View from the window.

Shower

The bathroom and yes I'm hiding. I look a hot mess today.

Jax's dining area. lol.